Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Yes I am guilty as charged. Back in November I had a relapse and put the creamy crack back into my hair and my daughters hair. What are people gonna say ? How am I gonna look? I would ask my friends if they thought I would look right, blah blah blah. But around the holidays, I really got to reflect on my life and what I really wanted to change about myself. I asked myself: Through the past 5 years, what has prevented you from being where you want to be and from showing the real you? I don't know. Then I thought about all I've been through and I started to just write everything I've overcome, all that I was grateful for, and all of the things that people have told me..... I almost figured it out...but not quite....
I returned to school on January 7 and over the holidays some circumstances occurred. Naturally I became anxious and worried so people noticed I wasn't myself at school. a friend of mine pulled me aside and asked me was I ok. I told her what was going on and what I wanted to do but I was so worried about the outcome. She stopped me and said:" what are you afraid of?" " you have to stop living in fear and just know that it will all work out" It doesn't matter what people think or say about whatever you want to do. If its going to change your life and make a positive difference in your life and your family's life then do it and have faith". Then it clicked. FEAR. That was what stopped me from a lot of things in my life.
I took that advice and ran with it!